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Post by Torpor on Mar 16, 2005 1:20:35 GMT -5
"I didnt me-. . . Thats not what I was saying. , ,"
"Just cause its new and I dont understand it and . . . and. . Its just. . . It doesnt mean its not real. It doesnt mean it couldn't be much more." Slumping back town and sliding to sit with his back against the pillar once agin he runs his hand roughly through his hair.
"If it feels real, then why couldnt it be real? You didnt kiss me back because Im lonely, you didnt hold me because of whats happened to me. You did. . . you did it because you felt it too and. . . "
Reaching over he places his hand on the edge of the big planter he was working in when she arrived. "Im not stupid, I may be naieve and I may be inexperianced but I know what I feel, Ive spent the majority of my memorable life with only myself to talk to, so I know 'me' pretty well. I didnt kiss you because you were the only person I could. I did it because you were the only person I wanted to."
Struggling to his feet, he wipes away beading tears from his eyes and looks down at his feet. his hand still gripping the planter. Tiny cracks forming where his fingertips dig into the ceramic. "I think I need some air."
Stepping around her he moves towards the door, leaving a trail behind him of rosey brown ceramic peices falling from his hand, leading back tohis planter of seedlings, wilted and brown and dead.
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Post by Tricity~Wire on Mar 16, 2005 1:30:47 GMT -5
*tricity let him pass and heard his footsteps end as he reached the grass of the mansion's grounds outside next to the greenhouse. she turned and walked out as well, her leather boot heels clicking till she stepped out off of the walkway and into the grass.
ethan had his back against the greenhouse looking toward the mansion through the fog that had settled over the enormous property. the few lights on in the mansion, lighting some of the ground. tricity walked over next to him and took his hand as he continued to look in the direction of the mansion*
i didnt mean to hurt your feelings...or to imply you didnt understand what you felt or that it was a pseudo kind of feeling. i guess i just took what you were saying differently from what you really meant.
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Post by Torpor on Mar 16, 2005 1:38:22 GMT -5
"Im not always good with words. . . I know that."
Taking her offered hand he squeezes slightly and pulls her closer. Moving in front of her and taking the other hand earnestly.
His eyes meet hers through strands of fallen hair both dark and light. They motion up and his head nods towards the heavens. Looking through the fog at the dark sky above them he smiles at the dim stars and shining cresent moon.
"Im not good at. . . well. . . and I know Im just gonna mess up more if I keep talking so-" Breaking off his words mid-thought, Ethan's hands slide away from hers to grip her hips, pulling them towards him and leaning in to match his lips against hers.
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Post by Tricity~Wire on Mar 16, 2005 1:47:06 GMT -5
*happy he wasnt upset, tricity kissed him back, putting her arms around his neck. after a few moments, she pulled back.* i hope i can help you with everything. i wouldnt even know where to start...theres so much youve missed.
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Post by Torpor on Mar 16, 2005 1:55:28 GMT -5
Kissing her intermitently between words, he finally mannages to pull his mind together to whisper through a chuckling smile, "Don't worry about putting together lesson plans. . . I just need to know you'll be there when something comes along. Theres no need to start, its already started, Im happy just to have you along for the ride."
"Ya know. . . all these happy experiances are piling up, if Im not careful I might end up with good dreams one of these nights. . . that is assuming this isnt one big wonderful. . ." Pulling her to the soft grassy lawn, almost black in the dim light, he rolls her to her back and leans down, kissing her forhead, down between her eyes, the tip of her nose then finally, right before bringing them down on her lips, his own let out the final word. . . "dream" with an almost euphoric sigh.
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Post by Tricity~Wire on Mar 16, 2005 2:04:11 GMT -5
*tricity smiles as he kisses her and wonders whether or not she is actually the one dreaming. mentally telling herself "screw it", she turns over so she is straddling ethan to continue kissing.* of course i'll be there to help you...i told you that from day one.
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Post by Torpor on Mar 16, 2005 2:11:31 GMT -5
Hushing her with a nibble on her lower lip. Ethan pulls her down onto him and embraces her tightly, strong arms wraping around her slim torso, his hand cupping the back of her head, burying his own into her soft shoulder and neck.
Her scent fills his lungs and he can feel his heart begin to beat faster and faster, and then moments later the thump-thump of hers can be felt in tune with his own.
He rolls them onto their sides and kisses her neck, then releases one half of her, letting her body roll away from him slightly, cupping her in one protective arm as he relaxes back onto the grass to look back and forth between her and the night sky.
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Post by Tricity~Wire on Mar 16, 2005 2:18:23 GMT -5
*tricity put her head down on his chest as she lay next to him, looking up at the stars...one of her favorite things to do. she took his hand and noticed the tattoo '519'.* do you...remember anything? if you dont want to talk about it...i understand.
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Post by Torpor on Mar 16, 2005 2:29:28 GMT -5
"I remember a lot. But most of it doesnt mean anything, it doesnt flow like my life untill that point does. It all comes in clumps, all the tests, the exersizes, the surguries. At some point it stopped mattering to me, and it all just became a mental soup of needles and beds and white walls."
Cradling her more strongly against him, he continues. "The only part I dont remember is how I got there, why I was there. It was enough for my parents to abandon me there. . . They lov- . . . they really did love me. I know everyone here talks about how cruel humanity is, but they did, they wouldnt have just left me there unless it was something really awful. Part of me still remembers, but that part of me is locked too far away, its shouting at me from accross a canyon but all I can hear are the whispers around me."
"I dont know what the number means, probably something to identify me with, would be easier than giving me a name or calling me by my own. A number isnt human, it doesnt have feelings. . . and the way they had me doped up, I really didnt care anymore. I might as well have just been that number. Five Nineteen. . . it kinda has a ring to it.
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Post by Tricity~Wire on Mar 16, 2005 2:35:25 GMT -5
*tricity felt her heart drop for him for such a terrible thing to happen.* i know humans arent all bad and i try and explain that to the children, though many of them dont wanna hear me nor do they want to believe me because theyve been through some horrific experiences. i try though...i think its important for them to understand that everyone is not like the hateful humans theyve encountered. *she laughed a little* that was me once...hating all humans. i had a pretty bad experience myself and xavier found me and trained me; mentally and emotionally. he showed me all humans werent bad and i soon came to realize he was in fact right. *she nestled closer to him* have you tried contacting your parents at all? if you even want to?
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Post by Torpor on Mar 16, 2005 2:41:13 GMT -5
"Ive caused them enough anguish over what I am, they could have come for me any time they wanted while I was in there. . . . they didnt." His face hardens slightly and his eyes take in the sky once more. "They didnt for a reason. . . They didnt want me, Im not going to force myself on them again."
Running his free hand through her hair and down her shoulder, he sighs contently. "I miss them, I know Ill probably miss them every day. But I dont need them, I dont need the pain they would bring back to me. Ill find a new family here, or out there somewhere. "Our blood may bind us together, but love bonds stronger still."
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Post by Tricity~Wire on Mar 16, 2005 2:44:48 GMT -5
well maybe they are looking for you now and you dont know it. maybe they regret what theyve done and they werent allowed to see you. i mean...you never really know. maybe you should at least try? *tricity suggested, sitting up on her elbows and putting her hands on her cheeks to rest her head in her palms.* thats what happened to me. they sorta threw me out, but when i contacted them, they nearly had a heart attack at the sound of my voice. i always thought my brother thought i was a freak too, but he missed me and hated my parents for throwing me out so to speak. *she took one hand and placed it on his face* ya know? maybe you should try?
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Post by Torpor on Mar 16, 2005 2:51:21 GMT -5
"Maybe. . . someday. I dont think Im quite ready to take that chance though, to face that."
Taking her hand from his cheek, he kisses her fingertips and then moves it back to the grass. Twisting into a crouch he brings himself to his feet and reaches down to help her to hers.
"We should head inside, its getting late. . . and cold." He shivvers slightly in his tight white undershirt, jeans and leather slip-on sandals. "Didnt exactly expect to be out on wet grass in the winter." Smiling he offers his arm to her and flutters his eyelashes playfully.
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Post by Tricity~Wire on Mar 16, 2005 2:55:21 GMT -5
*tricity giggles and shakes her head, smiling* well thank you dear sir *she said in a mocking voice of a british accent. she took his arm and looked down at his watch* OH MY GOODNESS!! i have a class in a few hours! i didnt even realize what time it was! this is all your fault!! *tricity said, slapping him on his arm with her free hand* making me forget that time exists is a no-no!
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Post by Torpor on Mar 16, 2005 3:02:21 GMT -5
"Hey now. . not my fault. . . but yes indeed, we should get to bed. . . err. . . seperate. . . I mean, we should go to our beds." Blushing he smiles meekly and takes a step forward with her on his arm.
"Ya know, I bet theres someone here who could actually do that ya know. . . the whole time thing. . . maybe we should look into it, would make romantic interludes a lot easier on the schedual, not to mention studying."
Leading her towards the mansion, he cant help but smile broadly.
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